When I first found out I was pregnant my plan was to return to work 4 months after the birth (a little ambitious) little did I know that 9 months after the birth I am still at home with my little girl. It sounds quite mushy but from the moment that she was born I knew that I wanted to take my full maternity leave, I couldn’t consider the thought of leaving her to return to work any sooner. My maternity leave will come to an end at the end of this month…..
I always said that I would return to work but as the months have ticked on I cant help but think “Do I really want somebody else looking after my daughter?” and “I really don’t want to miss a moment with her” which is quite understandable as she has developed so much over the past few months that even I am finding it hard to keep up.
So what happens now? Can we afford it if I were to stay at home?
I would love to be able to go back to work, I love having my independence and would also want Isabelle to have the nursery experience but for some unknown reason I cannot justify working to pay somebody else to look after my child. To me it no longer makes sense when we will not get any help with childcare costs. But most of all it terrifies me that she is growing so quickly and I want to be there for all of her moments.
It may seem like I am trying to talk myself into reasons why I should be a SAHM but in all honesty, financially we will be no better off on my return to work with the majority of my salary going towards childcare costs. On this realisation we decided that Isabelle would benefit from my staying at home. We have also taken a leap to start our own business from home which I would run, if it takes off in a year or two then Isabelle will be attending nursery at that age anyway so it works out well for all of us.
Now I just need to get my rather rotund derriere in gear and finish what I started with setting up the company and website, whilst enjoying the precious time with my little girl.
I am 99.9% sure that we have made the right choice………..